I really wanted to start afresh.
I am really frustrated with myself, the shit that I had gone unwittingly into, and the hurt that I caused myself. I asked myself this depressing question, why am I gone into a similar case again?
There is a lesson that I didn't learn properly and now, I want to back out. OUt of this stupid work, out of this hurt and misery. Oh Allah, help me. now Wati is here lying on the bed behind me, but I feel the assurance from her. dunno why.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Online Videos by Veoh.com
I am starting to love Junsu again... Dang, SS501 still lives in my heart, but for now Junsu wearing glasses has captured my heart!
I admit that Veoh Player is bigger in screen, but it is also very laggy and slow in uploading vids...
Monday, February 26, 2007
Mumblings
How far are you willing to go for your dream? Will you stay in a place where you know in your heart, you can't pursue your other goals and achievements but be 100% committed to your work? Gosh.. I dunno. I wonder if there is a place where I am paid reasonably good but allows time to rest, or even socialise? to go for your dream, you gotta sacrifice some things to achieve your goals? my mind is boggling now, enduring a fever and worse, all the heat goes to my eyes, and I keep blinking to cool them.. all the things that I always wanted to do usually got problems... hope that I find a way out... Pray to Allah.... ^^
May Allah bless all of us.
May Allah bless all of us.
another entry...
hey ya! a brand new year, a brand new post. my life changed.
changed to another job, been wanting to start my diploma, got new friends, settled some differences and found myself working quite late, u can say that i leave the school usually around 6.30 pm.
the school ends around 4.45, but after 1 hour debriefing, or some other things to do for the learning studio... curriculum meeting..
Iman Kindergarten. a place where you have to be constantly fast, have the initiative, strong rapport with colleagues and teamwork. my good friend and me usually stayed back quite late to finish the activities for the learning studio for 1st term. why? we are in charge and also change hands on activities according to 2 weeks theme period.
I also got some serious feedbacks, did some serious reflection, changed my pace of working, and i love the kids. The kids love me too, and i learnt how to be strict, but at the same time, be loving at the same time. i also learnt how to make my lessons interesting, but i tell myself, there are some major flaws to improve on immediately. There's a lesson observation conducted by the principal coming soon, and i got to prepare for that. I am still under guidance, but there's some things that I learnt the hard way. that's the life of a early childhood educator, and there's more coming soon..
gosh.. u may have a hectic working life, but you must make time for yourself to have your social life and hang out with your loved ones. my schedule is packed for this week, but i hope to make time for Juliah and friends...
changed to another job, been wanting to start my diploma, got new friends, settled some differences and found myself working quite late, u can say that i leave the school usually around 6.30 pm.
the school ends around 4.45, but after 1 hour debriefing, or some other things to do for the learning studio... curriculum meeting..
Iman Kindergarten. a place where you have to be constantly fast, have the initiative, strong rapport with colleagues and teamwork. my good friend and me usually stayed back quite late to finish the activities for the learning studio for 1st term. why? we are in charge and also change hands on activities according to 2 weeks theme period.
I also got some serious feedbacks, did some serious reflection, changed my pace of working, and i love the kids. The kids love me too, and i learnt how to be strict, but at the same time, be loving at the same time. i also learnt how to make my lessons interesting, but i tell myself, there are some major flaws to improve on immediately. There's a lesson observation conducted by the principal coming soon, and i got to prepare for that. I am still under guidance, but there's some things that I learnt the hard way. that's the life of a early childhood educator, and there's more coming soon..
gosh.. u may have a hectic working life, but you must make time for yourself to have your social life and hang out with your loved ones. my schedule is packed for this week, but i hope to make time for Juliah and friends...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
my stint at the childcare centre.... 19 Nov 06
My stint at the childcare centre ends... I'm not going to state names here...
One thing for sure, I'm going to miss all the children, from toddlers to K2.. Even the staff there.. my journey of ups and downs, all the tears and laughter i have shared with them, the hugs they willingly give me, their smiles, their individual personalities and our unique ways of connecting with the children, especially the multiple nationalities child, the pose of praying while sleeping, the two dimples child, the more active ones in N2, the three brothers.. the most active toddler... and 2 brothers who fell asleep inmediately after lying on the mattress. and his usual sleeping pose of lying on your back cross-legged. the older brother.
I find that interesting things happen in a childcare centre everyday. Usually, its the children who entertain us, not the opposite. I find the staff being soo busy until they go down with flu, coughs, fever and other illnesses. (Believe me, i know, since i have been there and done that.) I gotta applaud to them. Not only that, they had to deal with upcoming events, held especially at the end of the year. but they thrived on to finish all. Their passion for kids is their drive to go to work everyday. Kudos to them.
At the beginning of my stint, I remembered that i was exhausted. Ard 4 pm, i tried to keep awake. i did everything, from washing my face, to massaging my eyebrow area to keep awake. Alas, it was futile. So needless to say, during their tv sessions before coming home, i napped. I think the children knew that, because K2 kids were staring at me curiously. This went on and continued when Lily completed 4 days attachment. Ah... that was the best part during the attachment. At least i got a friend to chat with, and go to Causeway Point together. We normally chat about the center, the kids during the bus 695 journey. I remembered dragging our feet to Macdonalds, and eating dinner there. After that, we shopped. It strengthened our friendship more. The thought of us going to the library and going to class caused some really funny incidents. Incidents caused by fatigue. Only Allah and Lily know how they went. I would love for times like these to happen often. Unfortunately our schedules always crash.
2 bad things happened during my stint. First, the incident where a grp of naughty children secretly slipped an self explosive mini bag. We were just chatting and I falling asleep, until the bag exploded itself. A boy cried, and laughter were heard outside. All the teachers pitied the boy, coz he was sleeping at the window until he was given a rude shock. I wldn't be surprised that he develops a phobia. Both Lily and I were soooo angry at the pranksters. We closed all the windows, and somebosy said that it can happen again. True enuf, it did. This time round, the pranksters ran along the windows knocking. But they were caught by one of the staff.
Then I was tasked with conducting a storytelling session that didn't go well... I admit, the book I chose is an inappropriate book. I tried to make my voice and the tone authoritive, and I did manage to finetune on that. I did take over the class, and I gave them free expression session. Asking the children what they drew is 1 way to get closer to them We don't need to figure out what the drawings meant. We just asked them. Later, the teachers asked me to watch over their class for a moment, while they went to take water, go toilet, whatsoever. At the mid of second week, I became busy doing my learning center. The center that i chose is a Camping center. It took me time to do the campfire, the pond and the background.
Also, I toyed with many ideas to do for my lesson practicum. At first i wanted to do storytelling, then switched to art and craft, again with different ideas. I did the lesson plan last minute. Gosh.. I regretted that. How I wished that i conducted a lesson proper, but Nan proceeded to the learning center and i had to go with her. I think a kid was pissed off at me for leaving the lesson hanging in the air. Another kid that I really liked, sulked when he was not included in the lesson that I conducted. To him, I was showing favoritism. When actually I wasn't. The reason was that he was an active kid. Enuf said. They all brightened up when I bought metallic pencil cases for them. I bought 3 different kinds, and i wanted them to make choices.
Yesterday was the last day for me. I managed to keep my promise. Going all the way to Bugis to buy a royal cake chocolate truffle. Yum... I didn't know that going to Tampines was a better option than Bugis. I didn't know and I didn't ask the staff for info. It also happened that K2 graduation event was held on the same day. I get to eat Delicious banana muffin... yum... can't forget the taste. I brought out the cake last minute... they enjoyed it v much....
Yuppzz... that's it... ^^
One thing for sure, I'm going to miss all the children, from toddlers to K2.. Even the staff there.. my journey of ups and downs, all the tears and laughter i have shared with them, the hugs they willingly give me, their smiles, their individual personalities and our unique ways of connecting with the children, especially the multiple nationalities child, the pose of praying while sleeping, the two dimples child, the more active ones in N2, the three brothers.. the most active toddler... and 2 brothers who fell asleep inmediately after lying on the mattress. and his usual sleeping pose of lying on your back cross-legged. the older brother.
I find that interesting things happen in a childcare centre everyday. Usually, its the children who entertain us, not the opposite. I find the staff being soo busy until they go down with flu, coughs, fever and other illnesses. (Believe me, i know, since i have been there and done that.) I gotta applaud to them. Not only that, they had to deal with upcoming events, held especially at the end of the year. but they thrived on to finish all. Their passion for kids is their drive to go to work everyday. Kudos to them.
At the beginning of my stint, I remembered that i was exhausted. Ard 4 pm, i tried to keep awake. i did everything, from washing my face, to massaging my eyebrow area to keep awake. Alas, it was futile. So needless to say, during their tv sessions before coming home, i napped. I think the children knew that, because K2 kids were staring at me curiously. This went on and continued when Lily completed 4 days attachment. Ah... that was the best part during the attachment. At least i got a friend to chat with, and go to Causeway Point together. We normally chat about the center, the kids during the bus 695 journey. I remembered dragging our feet to Macdonalds, and eating dinner there. After that, we shopped. It strengthened our friendship more. The thought of us going to the library and going to class caused some really funny incidents. Incidents caused by fatigue. Only Allah and Lily know how they went. I would love for times like these to happen often. Unfortunately our schedules always crash.
2 bad things happened during my stint. First, the incident where a grp of naughty children secretly slipped an self explosive mini bag. We were just chatting and I falling asleep, until the bag exploded itself. A boy cried, and laughter were heard outside. All the teachers pitied the boy, coz he was sleeping at the window until he was given a rude shock. I wldn't be surprised that he develops a phobia. Both Lily and I were soooo angry at the pranksters. We closed all the windows, and somebosy said that it can happen again. True enuf, it did. This time round, the pranksters ran along the windows knocking. But they were caught by one of the staff.
Then I was tasked with conducting a storytelling session that didn't go well... I admit, the book I chose is an inappropriate book. I tried to make my voice and the tone authoritive, and I did manage to finetune on that. I did take over the class, and I gave them free expression session. Asking the children what they drew is 1 way to get closer to them We don't need to figure out what the drawings meant. We just asked them. Later, the teachers asked me to watch over their class for a moment, while they went to take water, go toilet, whatsoever. At the mid of second week, I became busy doing my learning center. The center that i chose is a Camping center. It took me time to do the campfire, the pond and the background.
Also, I toyed with many ideas to do for my lesson practicum. At first i wanted to do storytelling, then switched to art and craft, again with different ideas. I did the lesson plan last minute. Gosh.. I regretted that. How I wished that i conducted a lesson proper, but Nan proceeded to the learning center and i had to go with her. I think a kid was pissed off at me for leaving the lesson hanging in the air. Another kid that I really liked, sulked when he was not included in the lesson that I conducted. To him, I was showing favoritism. When actually I wasn't. The reason was that he was an active kid. Enuf said. They all brightened up when I bought metallic pencil cases for them. I bought 3 different kinds, and i wanted them to make choices.
Yesterday was the last day for me. I managed to keep my promise. Going all the way to Bugis to buy a royal cake chocolate truffle. Yum... I didn't know that going to Tampines was a better option than Bugis. I didn't know and I didn't ask the staff for info. It also happened that K2 graduation event was held on the same day. I get to eat Delicious banana muffin... yum... can't forget the taste. I brought out the cake last minute... they enjoyed it v much....
Yuppzz... that's it... ^^
in out, in out.... 15 Nov 06
Children. My motto for them: adorable devils. They are adorable, but some of them being devils, they can really stretch your limit. The smiles on their faces, their comments, and their sadness are all shared among us along the way. Gosh. Not to mention their endless complaints. Gosh. Should I say more? Maybe not.
Meanwhile, I’m 3 more days to Sat, the final day of my practicum. I will certainly miss all the staff, who are wonderful, who make my practicum stint much more livelier and interesting... To the class N2A, Inshirah’s class, who are quite mischievous and funny, I will never forget them. I will add more, but now, I gotta concentrate on the things to do for my practicum….
Meanwhile, I’m 3 more days to Sat, the final day of my practicum. I will certainly miss all the staff, who are wonderful, who make my practicum stint much more livelier and interesting... To the class N2A, Inshirah’s class, who are quite mischievous and funny, I will never forget them. I will add more, but now, I gotta concentrate on the things to do for my practicum….
reflections... or rather, ramblings. 23 Oct 06
gosh... its been a while since i updated my blog here...
Tml is Syawal, the first day where we thriumph over the obstacles, and it also marked the end of the wonderful fasting month. hmm... i stayed up will 3.30 am in morning just to pray. I firmly believe that 3 - 4 am is the best hour of the night, where all your prayers will be answered. Whats more during the fasting month... ^^
Come to think of it, there is still 1 month more before my cert course officially ends. All those people whom i got close to, the rides home (its free... wakaka... ^^) , the ongoing lessons where we have to read the contents out aloud, birthday parties, the chipping in of $$ for birthday presents or the makan sessions.. whatever we took for granted will finally end. The first class that nan got close to us.. the joys and laughter. School time is the best, no matter whether it is full-time or part-time. yea.. Now I am looking forward to our Hari Raya gatherings. We have not planned any yet, but i'm sure they will do sumthing about it.
And at the snap of a finger, 2006 will end. It is a good year for us.
I am looking forward to the Dec. I desperately want to go on a holiday. If i got a friend, I grab tt person and go jalan2. Working with little breaks in between makes my soul heavy with the burden. What burden? burden = working. lol.
I still haven't fulfilled my other desire. Going to Korea. Seriously, I mean it. If i have a chance to go and study there, i will grab the chance.
Learning Korean language; been there and done that.
Planning to go to Korea on Dec 2007. Must start planning how to save...
Tml is Syawal, the first day where we thriumph over the obstacles, and it also marked the end of the wonderful fasting month. hmm... i stayed up will 3.30 am in morning just to pray. I firmly believe that 3 - 4 am is the best hour of the night, where all your prayers will be answered. Whats more during the fasting month... ^^
Come to think of it, there is still 1 month more before my cert course officially ends. All those people whom i got close to, the rides home (its free... wakaka... ^^) , the ongoing lessons where we have to read the contents out aloud, birthday parties, the chipping in of $$ for birthday presents or the makan sessions.. whatever we took for granted will finally end. The first class that nan got close to us.. the joys and laughter. School time is the best, no matter whether it is full-time or part-time. yea.. Now I am looking forward to our Hari Raya gatherings. We have not planned any yet, but i'm sure they will do sumthing about it.
And at the snap of a finger, 2006 will end. It is a good year for us.
I am looking forward to the Dec. I desperately want to go on a holiday. If i got a friend, I grab tt person and go jalan2. Working with little breaks in between makes my soul heavy with the burden. What burden? burden = working. lol.
I still haven't fulfilled my other desire. Going to Korea. Seriously, I mean it. If i have a chance to go and study there, i will grab the chance.
Learning Korean language; been there and done that.
Planning to go to Korea on Dec 2007. Must start planning how to save...
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